Shoulders

Added paint prep to shoulder conditioning. Chipping away on exterior household projects. Paint thinner and razor blading gooey, old paint today. Mostly overhead. Ashtanga practice. Then home to more prep work. Woefully behind on reading blogs but enjoying each one. The codes that some require to post comment is another reason blogging would have not been possible this summer. Letters and numbers coming from fingers on keyboard would not compute. Makes you realize how amazing the human body is,especially when all parts in decent working order. I think I have let Fawn down by eating too many carbs this summer. She warned me not to eat too much sugar. It was like telling my sister not to put the bobby pin in her ear-of course she did it. I start with a breakfast cinnamon bun with icing. Lunch today was dessert. A small carrot cake and coffee. Dinner was chick peas,veggies,chicken and indian type sauce. Then I had a hunk of chocolate almond bar. I may be forced to begin a written food confessional until I get the sweets beast back in his cage.

Another one

Thursday I was tired and muscle sore. I attended a yoga class in hopes of working out some kinks. No dice. It was too light of a class to generate much heat,but I enjoyed it and reconnected with some acquaintances. The teacher offered lavender and peppermint oil if we wanted to use it. That was different and cool. I chose the peppermint. Cheap thrills.
Today I completed Providence again. All 8kg. Did not want to feel as wiped as I did yesterday and need to burn some bad eating habits. The practice felt very easy this time and I hammered out a bunch of snatches. Did not do OH squats, just windmill. No tactical lunge,did lunge with no bell instead. Not truly crushing on the triple crush.
Food habits need to be re-established.Water intake is excellent. Due to now living on borrowed estrogen, I don't sleep well and sweat a great deal at night. Drinking a liter of water throughout the night. Learning ways to manage from those who have gone before me. Too many carbs or lymphedema? In some areas it is obvious that the lymph fluid has built up a pudgy barrier where the nodes were removed. Unsure if legs look weird to me or if it lymph. Pretty soon I hope not to care, as long as I am practicing regularly and eating better.

Do I have the patience for this?

Not to beat a dead horse, but this whole thing is a process. When the chips fell in April I immediately decided to leave no stone unturned and to make use of the resources available to support myself and my family. When I was in treatment, that was pretty much as I could muster, and I did so with a sunny disposition with two exceptions. On those times, I threw tantrums. Once, because I wanted the tumor to be smaller after all the zapping, and the second time when my parents visited me in the hospital. I was behind a wall of lead. I was throwing up nothing, I was not allowed to move, or to use my natural bodily functions. I was trapped and I hated it. I made sure everyone knew it and felt as helpless as I did. Of course, in hindsight who knows what they were thinking? My nurses explained to my parents that I was angry. That made sense to me too. The super nice nurse brought me a chillingly cold cup of iced cranberry juice and I drank that and felt so grateful and quenched. She understood what I was feeling, even though I was unable to put a name on it. Well, Louisville is fortunate to have a Gilda's Club. It is like walking into a house full of just nicely decorated living rooms. There are no dogs, no dog hair, piles of clutter and so forth that I feel obligated to deal with in my own life. An oasis! But, that does not mean I won't be working on my stuff. My husband and I are attending a dinner and discussion soon.
As far as working on that anger,lost training time,etc,etc,etc and rehabbing everything, I popped Providence in the DVD player and followed along with Anthony. I used the 12 kg except when I used the 8kg. I kicked butt!! I guess the sulking need to cease. No snatches for time with 12kg yet- I want to be sure my shoulders where know where home is.
Wow, it's still Wednesday? My second post of the day!

Practices and taking my bod. to yoga class

9/6/09
KBs:30 minute circuit of cleans, pressing, push ups,front squats and snatches. 8kg
9/7/09
Ashtanga led up to Navasana with finishing sequence. Wow! I actually broke out in a sweat during the day time...instead of at night while trying to sleep. I used props the whole time. The Maricyasanas are well beyond my grasp at the moment, haha, yoga humor. The final expression of the binding poses is more than I want. With props and tips from the teacher, these were a great release for the fascia in my legs,down into shins,ankles and feet. I still love doing Urdvha padamasana. Garba pindasana was a big question mark. Bit by bit I went for it.
9/8/09
Feel great after yesterday's yoga class.
KBs:warm up 3x: wall squat 16 kg re-set each time,halos 10/10 8kg,pump
3x: 30 2Hsw,C&P 5/5,FSq all 12 kg
3x: OH carry,rack carry, sumos. All 12 kg. Static push ups 3/2/1 . Btwn each set 30 secs. various rope undulations
Windmill Low 5/5 8kg
Pull up w/band assist.4/3/2/1

PET Scan-Good news!

PET scan results are negative which indicates success of treatments. Yea!! Does this mean I have to stop my weekly chocolate malt habit? The answer is yes.
As far as my "recovery exercise program" goes, I added yoga several times a week in August. I started with some gentle classes just to see where my heart was. In a silent room of strangers... emotions happen. You hope they do! Ustrasana,yes, some spillover-all good. Hips are crazy tight and glutes sleepy. Feet and ankles likewise feel beat up after a certain amount of walking and activity. Foam roller work, tennis balls,The Stick,enough but not too much yoga and single leg and split body work at kbs.

I am very psyched that the next 2 month's schedule at Yoga East includes beginning Ashtanga and Ashtanga inspired classes. It once would have been unheard of to utilize props, but these classes will permit it. Full Primary incorporates much forward folding asanas but my left side just won't tolerate this. The option to use blocks and a strap will be a great support. The practice, always accessible, will in fact draw folks who may have shied away from Mysore class.

Getting stronger each week!